Tuesday, May 28, 2019

Macy's, Gimbels And Me


This book was on the small corner bookshelf in my father's office, or the 'back room' as my siblings and I referred to that sacred space where dad could continue working after coming home from his long commute to New York City.  Dad had a lease department in the behemoth department store, Gimbels.  And though not an official employee, we enjoyed the perks that came from this arrangement; a 25% discount, early entry into the store, inside info on the newest, upcoming products.

Gimbel's is long gone, closing in 1987, when I was 28 years old and traveling the country in my then husband's Chevy S10 pick-up truck.  I'd lived in Denver for nine years by that time and there was no Gimbels or Macy's here in the Queen City.  Colorado boasted The Denver, May D&F and Joslins.  All these places are long gone now as well. I even enjoyed a few short years of upscale Neusteter's before they closed in 1986.  Macy's seems to be the stalwart of them all.  

Growing up on the west bank of the Hudson river, Macy's disguised themselves as Bamberger's in the new and ultra modern Nanuet mall, that opened to much fanfare in 1969.  It was one of the first indoor shopping concepts in the country and we were lucky enough as teenagers to hop on the Red Line bus for 35 cents and enjoy a day of blaring boom boxes and grilled cheese sandwiches at Friendly's.

This past weekend, my youngest daughter and I visited Macy's in Boulder, Colorado.  Even though Boulder was bumping with The Boulder Bolder and other Creek Festival activities, the parking lot for Macy's was pretty open.  We entered the store and asked where housewares is located.  Down the escalator in the basement of the store.  Though well lit, we both thought the space cavernous and empty, my daughter used the word abandoned, and that was an apt perception. The elevator down put us at children's clothing.   No one to help us in the kids department, and the merchandising seemed scattered and not well organized.  We never did find infant socks for girls. 

Onward to housewares, where I chuckled that the Macy's branded merch was called "The Cellar".  How many folks, I wondered knew that reference?  As a teenager in fancy shoes behind my dad's watch and jewelry repair counter in Gimbels, I was privy to a thing or two about Macy's - located through the arcade that separated 33rd and 34th streets.  This was a cutout, arched tunnel, through a building, that linked Macy's to Gimbel's in the shortest possible manner.  I loved the pizza place in that arcade - just a few seats, and a giant window that the cooks pushed my order through.  I first tasted calzones here and still have a strong affection for those cheese and dough bombs.  

My friend Christine's grandmother worked in the hosiery department of Macy's.  Like my Dad's leased space in Gimbel's, it too was located on a balcony overlooking the first floor of the store.  In the days before ADA compliance there were long travertine staircases leading up to these mezzanine areas.  I occasionally ventured over to the rival store and had lunch with FiFi.  Woolworth's had a worthy and inexpensive little restaurant and we enjoyed eating there.  A mature teenager in grown-up clothes and a grandmother, who filled a spot in my heart; my own two grandma's long gone.  

Even though I didn't grow up in Macy's, I have fond memories of the era, the city streets and the way generations interacted back then.  When I enter a department store, memories easily flood my mind.  How many times did I take the escalator up eleven floors to get change for the newfangled cash register?  Dad always said take the elevator - it is faster; time is money and all that...  Or when I had a small Sweet Sixteen party at our house, and Dad procured a giant silk heart, bedecked with lace and ribbons that had hung from the ceiling of the store for Valentine's Day just a week before my soiree.  Everyone that attended my party signed that oversized memento with a grease pencil.  The heart lived in my bedroom for a while, then the basement, and landed in it's final resting place, the dump off Route 303, sometime in my 20's.

The reason my daughter and I went to Macy's was two-fold.  My uncle had sent me a future Harriet Tubman valued gift card he had received from the casino and the Sunday paper had a ten dollar off thirty-five purchase.  We figured we could buy $35 worth of stuff for about five bucks.  Baby clothes are always on the list, but we struck out in that department.  So, here we are trying very hard to spend some money - looking at clearance housewares.  

I couldn't believe that Thanksgiving and Christmas items hadn't already been snatched up.  Were they still pricy?  Was Macy's so overstocked at the holidays that five months later they were still carrying inventory?  Did anyone even shop here?

We couldn't find anything over in this section either.  We were looking for a simple, everyday drinking glass set.  The kind that comes a dozen to the box in three sizes.  One size that is actually useful, an oversized goblet, and a miniscule juice glass.  The kind that costs four dollars and lasts for two good sips at a hipster breakfast joint.

Up the escalator we went and more memories seep in.  The last time I visited Macy's 34th St.,  about 15 years ago, the upper floors still had the original escalators.  Narrow and wooden, they made a rickety-rick sound as this same daughter and I wended our way up to the Juniors department for some Fashion Week fun.  Yesterday we exited the moving stairs right in front of a Fit-Bit display and wondered if this would be a good fit for our foray of the day.

This is a locked case and the store is seriously devoid of not only customers, but associates as well.  We stood there looking and couldn't see any price tags.  Ready to mosey on, an associate appeared; she was obviously on lunch, brown paper bag in hand,  asking if us we needed help.  She summoned someone to assist.  But the key didn't fit, and then she couldn't find the other key ring, and she finally told us the price range, but no specifics, and my daughter said, politely "That's OK.  I can look on-line"

And that's it, isn't it?  A generation of young adults who shop differently than we ever imagined.  Why wait for a clerk, when a mouse is just a click away from informing us in ways that can overwhelm and educate.  Why venture out, park, walk, search endlessly for assistance when one can stay home in jammies, hot tea in hand, and spend money just like that!  Easy peasy.

Next stop - Home Depot.  This is really the grand-daddy of big stores.  Boulder's store is two stories! Steps or  an elevator (What?  No escalator?)  bring one up to appliances and that is where we headed first.  Here a very nice, well informed young man was super helpful.  What a refreshing change from the dungeon we just escaped from!  But downstairs, looking for two small items, no help in sight.  My daughter whips out her phone, presses a few buttons and tells me that tape measures are in aisle 7- bin 2.  I am impressed.  Youth and technology reigned again.

Driving back to my daughter's new place, I am reflective.  'Retail' laments that people are foregoing traditional avenues of shopping, yet try as we might, the experience is not pleasant.  It really is easier to go online, store all the pertinent info for ease of completion, and get what we want.  In just one or two days.  Plus, it could be fun to play Porch Pirate relay and get home before the parcel disappears.  But that problem is solved by having pick-up lockers either at a central location for housing complexes or at your local Whole Foods.  Amazon thinks of everything.

So you know, I am not advocating shopping at Amazon.  I am just ruminating.  I was about halfway through this post and had to go to a meeting.  I decided to run a couple of errands en route home.  Michael's for thread and upholstery needles.  Walgreen's to pick up some photos.  I couldn't find a clerk anywhere in Michael's and almost gave up after two jaunts around the store.  In the end, they didn't have all of what I wanted, but I bought one item utilizing their enticement of a 40% discount off one full price item.  I can't even tell you how many times the clerk asked for my phone number and email address before the coupon would activate.  Can I just check out?  One item shouldn't take 10 minutes.  My $2.01 sale lost them money in time and labor.

Walgreen's was no better.  Three bags of nuts for $10.00 and a BOGO at $2.99 should ring up at thirteen bucks and change.  I may not be good at math, but I can muddle through money.  The photos were prepaid - thank goodness, or I may never have gotten out of there.  My total?  $20.52.  So, here comes the manager, and he jogs around the store price checking and oh!  guess what? this customer is right!  Sorry, voids and re-rings and it still isn't correct.  I'm ready to leave $13.50 on the counter and tell them to figure it out while I get a tooth extracted.  That might have been less painful.

Driving home, alone, I am equally reflective to yesterday's ponderance.  Why do I even need to go to Walgreen's?  I can't get my prescriptions there.  It is always a hassle.  Leaving their parking lot is a left turn home, and I DO avoid those at all costs.   As far as my visit to Michael's, well I still need to go to JoAnne's, or maybe I'll try to buy one solitary spool of  jewel-tone blue thread on-line.

There was a saying when I was growing up. "Does Macy's tell Gimbels?".  Simply put it meant, you don't tell your competition what you are up to.  And Macy's was the bigger of the two.  Saying my dad worked at Gimbels always seemed second best.  How would this translate today?  Does Amazon tell anybody, anything?  Did Macy's tell us something without saying a single word?  From 2000 to 2016, Macy's closed 90 stores.  Wasn't that telling enough?

The Macy's located about two miles from where I live is slated to close at the end of 2020.  The same shopping area, had a Sears that closed just before the Holiday season in 2018.  Both pieces of real estate are being developed to have 400 apartments on each site.  Where will these newbies to Colorado shop?  On-line.

These new apartments will undoubtedly sport all of the latest amenities;  Resident Happy Hours, trash pick-up nightly at your door, access to public transportation, rooftop pools and of course they will be cable-ready with high speed internet access.  In a strange twist of retail fate, these 800+ apartment dwellers will shop at home, devices on, cold brew coffee in hand in the very spot(s) where the stores Amazon put under used to stand.  They might even hear a ghost of a whisper...  Can I help you, Ma'am?  The whisper of a ghost... What may I do for you today, sir?

Time to Write,

Jane


Saturday, May 25, 2019

Horology






Horology


My father was a watchmaker

But he didn’t really make watches

Instead he disassembled those 17 or 21 jeweled beauties

Dipping some parts in solvents, others in new grease

One customer’s treasure at a time



Dad’s loupe pulled over his weary, hazel eyes

To magnify the mainspring.  The bezel

The balance staff.  The stem and the crown

Slow, tedious work



Once he told me a story about

Women in Illinois developing tongue cancer

From licking the small brushes used to paint

Radium on the dial



I always wished he had never told me that because

I could never admire my own small wristwatch

With the twist-o-flex band and

Luminous face in the dark

Of my own room, late at night

Without feeling a sadness

A child shouldn’t know



This poem came out of a workshop on Philip Levine.  My dad was already on my mind as a few fellow poets and I ate dinner beforehand, and the restaurant décor was large clocks and steampunk themed furnishings. With The Radium Girls in the news, I felt compelled to share.











Friday, May 10, 2019

Babies and Bullets

Again, I am motivated to write from a place of grief.  Disbelief.  A not again, never again, REALLY AGAIN? type of sadness.  I off-handedly joke that poetry is cheaper than therapy, but I am profoundly affected by violence, once again.  And I am not sure I can work through my feelings with prosaic psychology this time.

This past Tuesday, I was supposed to meet my middle daughter at her place of work after I finished up leading a poetry workshop.  But the neighborhood was cordoned off and good citizens were directed not to enter the area.  Another school shooting.  Close to home.  Was I terrified that my daughter was just a few blocks from a shooting?  Yes.  Was I pissed that it was happening again?  Yes.  Did I feel helpless?  Yes.  Later this feelings would amplify as we all learned details and I discovered that I had some personal connections to parents of students.  A fellow NIA practitioner.  One of my favorite yoga teachers.

My daughter came home, shaken and also angry.  She told me her step mom had called her at work to let her know the latest news.  I wasn't surprised as her dad's wife used to live in this area.  Then my daughter told me that her dad had called her when a different shooting had happened by our house.  And I had to work through the process of figuring out which house?  Which shooting?  The Planned Parenthood shooting just miles from our home in Colorado Springs?  The murder of Douglas County Deputy Zach Parish*, just blocks from the apartment we rent in the suburbs south of Denver?

We lived a mere eight miles from Columbine on that fateful day.  I remember wondering why I moved back to Colorado.  And now I wonder if my friends who have kids at STEM wonder why they moved here from Virginia and Wisconsin. Of course geography offers no immunity for school shootings and gun violence in general.  It is an epidemic.  Widespread panic is the new norm.

I wrote this poem in the wake of Parkland.  I marched in a protest following what was then the latest school shooting.  More school-based murders have happened since then, and I fear we have not seen the last.  Listen to the kids who exited STEM, seemingly unscathed, but forever harmed.  They are not cavalier.  They have a reality that I cannot comprehend.  They live in this fear and this culture.  I decided a long time ago not to be the adult who judges their feelings, edits their speech, or tells them how to act.

All I can do is write.  Spit my feelings out on paper and hope it provides relief or insight for whoever may read my words.  I don't expect every reader to nod and agree with every word I say.  But I do ask this; if you disagree - write your own words.  I'm in no mood to engage or argue.

Have a violence-free day.

Jane

Time to Write

* Four other deputies were also injured



The New Annihilator

by Jane Hillson Aiello - February 2018



The current day obliteration will not be
By troops in heavy boots and woolen coats
Arms outstretched in a superior salute

This modern-day madman has an
AR-15 as his arm extension
His uniform is blue jeans and a backpack
A trench coat, blank eyes
His artillery? Video games and easy ammo

Soon, there will be no more Holocaust survivors
Schoolchildren today are the last generation
To hear a real person
With a sad, guttural voice speak the truth

Telling us never, never again
One day any shard of light 
Ashen afterglow of extermination
Will be forever dimmed

Citizens stood and saluted
An evil man with no heart
Neighbors clucked their tongues
Disregarded the glaring truth

Today’s society has a different breed of survivor
Years from now a grandmother will hold a toddler
In the warmth of her bosom and tell
Of the time of terror

Innocent children being murdered in kindergarten
Teenagers gunned down in the halls of high school
That practicing your faith was dangerous
Synagogues were targets, unsafe
Movie theaters provided real life
Bolt-action, dive under your seat experiences

Our blind-eye is vapid
Thoughts and prayers
Hollow sentiments, candlelight vigils
Fallow filibusters

We must pray these current survivors of today’s reign of terror
Perpetuated by the new regime of a corrupt congress
Puppeteered by the NRA
Will find the strength to procreate

Overcome this satanic inhumanity
That values bullets over babies

Primavera Falso

I wrote this poem in the spring of 2019.  I remember it today as I wake up to the lightest dusting and cloudy skies.   Primavera Falso Green...